My wake-up alarm comes all too early, it feels like. I drag myself out of bed before I fall back to sleep then try to soak in some of the only “alone” minutes that I’ll likely find that day. I pray for my big kids who are all grown and off on their own while I grab a shower and brush my teeth. No early morning texts from the hubby means all is stable downstairs where my other children are waiting for me to help them begin their day.
There are moments, though, when it all feels heavy… this incredible responsibility that I’ve been given to be not only mom, but also caregiver to a child that will need me forever. Between advocating for various therapies and services, keeping up with the supplies – tracking, filling, and organizing a couple dozen daily medications, returning numerous weekly phone calls to providers and finding the time fulfill our daily routine… I come face-to-face with the reality of my weakness. And then I look down from the task at hand and see my son. He greets me with his signature smile and I melt for a moment into mush. Some see a body that doesn’t work right, but I see a soul who has waited a long time to belong. My precious son who has never spoken a word, leads me back to the One who brought us together.
And I remember what my Father says: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” –Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV).
He didn’t ask me to do this all alone. He alone is the One who has the strength for this journey. And when the day feels heavy, I need to make sure I’m going to my Father so that He can take care of me.
Fellow parent, caregiver, family member – He sees you. He knows your need. He never asked you to handle this all on your own. He is with you at that bedside. And if you will look to Him, you’ll find joy indescribable, even on your heaviest days.
Shelly Roberts is a dedicated wife and mom to 8 kids from around the globe (3 grown & 5 at home). With God in control, Shelly’s family has experienced twists and turns that have made for an inspiring story Serving in foster care brought the new dimension of disabilities to her family, transforming their hearts to welcome these children as daughter and son and advocate for vulnerable children. Shelly understands the unique dynamics of a family that has complex-needs kids and desires to encourage and lead other families to the One who is bigger than our circumstances. Whether camping out in a hospital room or at home enjoying time with a grandbaby, she’s learned to find joy in the moment and to trust His grace for each season.